Depression

I think that I’ll be ok I think everything will be fine no it won’t I think I’ll make it through this no I won’t

help me I think I’ll be able to handle this on my own.
I mean I got myself into this emotional mess didn’t i stupid girl
I’m too concerned with not hurting others I need to worry about myself I need help everything is getting too hard for me I can’t handle this

To be honest I am ultimately done with the way my life is going now. I’m just done with the fighting and being unsure about my future. If I even have a future. I just need to get out of this situation, but its beyond my control. They say you should learn to accept things you can’t control, but how do you accept those things if they’re what is leading you to a downward spiral. I feel like I have to walk on thin ice with everything and stay near the edge so in case the ice breaks I have something to grab on to. The only problem is that what I’d be grabbing on to is weak also and will break in time. There are only a few things that make me happy, and those things are being demolished by those around me. I just don’t want to deal with this anymore because the further into this situation I get, the worse and harder it is. And there’s no one there to help me. I know it won’t get better ever because in the end nothing will be the same and my life will be in crumbles.